Tonight, our membership in a secret society ends. We fans have been card-carrying members in the club of LOST, regardless of when we started watching. But tonight, that all ends. After tonight, there is nothing to wait for. No more anticipation. The waiting week in and week out is what drew us together. The constant blogging and theorizing and brain-to-mush moments. Realizing every answer leads to more questions. Well, tonight is the return on six years of emotional investment. Even if the finale is the first episode you’ve ever watched on television, you’re a member of the club. But after tonight, membership is closed.

My name is Bill Kahler, a 23-year-old college student in Grand Rapids, MI, who caught up in time to watch the Season 3 finale on TV.